Sat - felicia's bday buffet dinner at Sakura downtown east. in the car ride while driving to pasir ris brought back memories of mine. i rmbed i used to wait for him at white sands mall, the tampines interchange when he books out. i rmb once i took a bus.. I TOOK A BUS.. from seng kang all the way to pasir ris.. to a place that i don even go to.. taking a transport that's unfamiliar to me, asking around for directions on which bus to take and confirming with the uncle again and again that it's going to take me to the right place. all the way half an hour or more journey just to see his smile. just in exchange for another half hr with him in a bus ride home.
coming back from downtown east on our way home. drove past a bus stop and i saw a couple hugging each other at the bus stop, n i rmbed how we used to always sit at the bus stop near my house for another 15mins or more just to spend that little bit more time tgt. it's been a while since i've walked that route home.
Sun - went for 5pm. ps mor prayed for me when i raise my hand for a touch from God. As she prayed.."God.. release her from those burdens, hurts, fears, even right now.." tears that i couldn't hold back began to flow.. it was like after compressing everything down and tht prayer, tt touch from God just released everything within me. she gave me a nice big hug then after..perhaps cuz i was crying.
i looked at him n i heard T.p talking to him abt coming back from the celebration what not.. and i realised yea.. i'm never goin to hv that right again.. to noe abt his life.. to be part of it.. to noe his whereabouts and all. i believe as long as you're in love with some1, u will want to be part of his life and share with him urs. i guess i need to get use to knowin nuts abt him frm now on. i think this whole thing is pulling t.p n me apart too.. its like.. i dk. complicated.
imma go to sleep.
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